ok hello. i'll be blogging with blogspot from now. aku slow. kesian aku. but so what? lah kan. ngehahaha.

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suke nye akuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. finally all 4 of us. more of this ok? pls pls plssss. i so love my best friends.

ok. i love ariff too. heh.

bye.

omg. bike accidents are like the scariest shit. because most of the time it doesnt end good.
and what if the person involve is someone you know?
or worst still, someone you care for?
what would you do?

i cant help it but feel helpless. totally helpless. and i wish i could actually do something. ): 

: i hope you're ok. pls say you're ok.  

i feel sick. and im having my period.
oh how great!

and i wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
thank god i just received the msg or else i'll turn to a zombie soon.

SIAL.
PRANGAI MACAM SIAL !
FUCK YOU.
YOU DONT JUST USE THE AUTHORITY YOU HAVE JUST LIKE THAT.
MIGHT AS WELL YOU QUIT TOO.
NABEH.

surprise surprise shiqah loveeeee! (:

she was super cute with the toy crown lahhhhhhhhhhh. heh.
hope you enjoyed the night babe! and im glad to be part of your most paisey birthday ever. weeheeheeee. 

sometimes, when you want something so much, you dont get it. Instead, something you dont even want pops up in return.
i dont like it. i dont want it.
better still, i dont want the other one to give up just yet.

but i can clearly see that its heading nowhere now.
NOWHERE.  ):

i miss lyn.
i miss finaz.
and i miss them like crazy.

 but somehow i dont understand why you girls feel that way. we're not drifting apart. i guess its more of communication. its a two way thing, you know.

damndamndamn. i HAVE to see you girls soon ok? plsssssssssssssssssssssss. rindurindurindu.

: and lyn, you din call me back.  ):

ok i have a few minutes till midnight and i decided to blog cause i know i wont be that free later on. im still tired. im always tired. i need to rest. but i cant even find time to rest. haiyaaa.

i spent my monday & tuesday at the chalet. and it was gerek i tell you. haha. like finally i get to meet beribu org yang da lamer tak jumpe. ohhhhh yeayness.

most of the time it was girl talks cause the guys were so busy with the xbox. and it was cool lah that i get to talk with shiqa, nurul & kama like lamer2. heh. oh and on monday we girls were like asmah laili & her kuncu2 at the kitchen preparing the bbq food. and nurul actually tried to make baked rice. haha.

day 1

day 2

more pictures with nad-ayim. heh.

haiya. i look horrible lah with the penat face & the gemok-ness. damn saddening sia.

the guys did a good job with the bbq btw. and how i wish i could stay till midnight and celebrate shiqah's 18th! boooooooooooooooooooooo. haha. still, i love that pantat lahh. (:

oh ohhh! and i wanna thank amir for the gazzilion time for giving me a ride on both nights. tidak ku sangka kau begitu baik lah kann. ngehahaha.

and like AKHIRNYA i get that fringe rebonded just now. it looks better lah. but the ends are dry. sighs. nvm i'll just manage it well.

and and there was a fire drill at work and i swear it felt like secondary school. it was bloody funny. me & tuty were the only two from obriens. we had to seach for the stupid sign with OBRIENS on it but we couldnt. so we pusing2 like budak-budak bodoh while everyone was already at their places. so memalukan. then finally i saw the sign. and guess what? the word OBRIENS was small and last on the list..... of cleaners. ehhhhhhhhh THANKS EHH! ngehaha.

i'll be making an LJ account soon. and i'll need shiqah's help with the url. NGEHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA! shiqahkaukelakarnakmampos.livejournal.com

shiqah asked 'mel, when are you gonna update your blog?'

heh. i'hv been busy. andddddddddd tired. i'hv got so many things to say. but im too shagged now. chalet was gerek anyways. like yeay! (:

btw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ABDUL HADI. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NUR SHIQAH KHAIRON!!!!!!!!!!! da tua kwn aku satu2 eh. haha. abe aku lagi lamer. booooooooooo.

k besok keje. aku rinduuuuuuuu keje. haha. bye.

hello. im in class and im presenting in 5 minutes.
haha. k bye.

going home with tuty and syaz somehow made me happy for that 45 mins or so we had together. thanks sweethearts. (:

and thank you syaz syg for accompanying all the way from 'doing what was told from wan' and to the hospital. i dont know what i'll do if i were alone in both situations. thanks a million. k i wanna hug you. haha. 

anyways darling, you just have to go on with life. there's no point lingering in the past. whats done is done. maybe you made a mistake. maybe you didnt. grow from it. im not being myself now either. i kept worrying for that moment or should i say nightmare. everything has its reasons i guess. you may be weak and sad now. but im sure you'll be happy one day. without suffering, you wont find happiness. trust me dear. and you never know when the new syazana grows up from this, she'll be a better person. (:

i cant bear seeing her lying on that bed. talking bout things she shouldnt talk about. fighting to talk and even breathe, even though she's so weak.
i cant take it. really,my heart really cant take it.

im tired. and i cant put my mind at ease either. as much as i wanna blog bout sentosa for lyn, i just cant. sorry darling. i'll just tell you when we meet up or something ok? i miss you. ):

im glad that work had been keeping me busy. so i dont have to think bout all the scary things that would happen to my grandmother. when i saw that swollen eyes on my mum & that worrying look on my dad, i know things are just getting worst. im scared. really i am. oh God, help us all through this. cause if the worst would have happen, i know i wont be strong for it.

and to syaz, im really proud of you, for standing up for yourself. its great to see you being so strong. somehow, i needed that from you. now that i wont be for myself. but i'll still be there for you, anytime. like any other times. i love you. just let it all go.

there goes life. a roller coaster ride.

i got a comment from someone. and i miss this person like mad.
omg FALIQ FARHANN, i swear i miss you too!

i cant wait to go to talks, hang out and talk nonsense with you. laugh at you. laugh at anyone else. you die die want me to teman kau isap rokok at car park. see everything mat rep-ish about you that makes me roll my eyes. the way you shuffle, its bloody funny. and the fight you always have with loga.(ok that i wont see again.) everything of those will have to come when school re-opens.

damndamndamn i just miss you lah, babi! 

i'hv been sitting here in the ward for hours. and no worries, my grandma's kinda fine now.
and i missed out the fun that the gang are probably having now. i miss bowling. but granny needs me. its also important for me to be here.

anyways, im meeting the babes tomorrow. once again, happy birthday darling finaz. (:

the father just msged.
my grandma is hospitalised.

i have to sleep. i gotta sleep.
somehow, i just cant.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST FINAZ!!

nothing can compare to the way you make me laugh with your lame jokes.
and although we had a tiff before, lets just put that in the past.
you're special and you know that. (:

i love you !

yes my best friend is a contradiction. sad sad case. and her room smell like fart. heh heh. im still tired. though all i did was lying around at her place. sheeeesh im like a pemalas pig.

work explains my shagness. k tak. kenduri before that. and before kenduri was family picnic. so basicly i din get that much rest. plus watching one tree hill till morning din help. pffts.

call me delivery girl now. -__- we had an order from the office yesterday and i had to deliver. 4 times! thanks eh. i had to do full shift. ok it was more like i volunteer cause tuty had been doing full shift over the weekends. so i decided to take over. im soooooooooo nice. k bye.

i had my first ljs meal for this year too. haha sedih. terima kasih wan for treating. and working with him is not that bad lahh. he's like the best manager ever. cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. and im not saying this just because he blanje me ljs ok. (:

more openings with tuty this week. like YEAYNESS! shit i promised to push that damn old trolley that goes GEDEGEK GEDEGEK tomorrow. boooooooooooooooo.

 and tuty goes ' hello can i order a.... ermmm.... uhhhhh.. ok hold on. ok errmmmm can i order a obriens? '   -___________________-

and ahmad is such an irritant. he said i gained weight. k tu part sedih. and then he had to stand behind me to see my ez link picture. abe dah gitu he wants to take it the next time and laugh his ass off. k bagooooooooooooooooooooos.

i miss home. i miss being at home. da uh bye.

new hobby: deleting people on friendster. oh wells im not all about making friends online anyways. and macam menyemak lah all the pages with those people i dont even know. there's a reason why my profile's private what.

pms is on its way. i can feel it. pffts. kesian finaz kene layan. i had to pour everything out lah. sheeeeeeeesh.

i told nad that diet starts today. but being a babi that i am, it will have to start 1001 years from now. pffts. it happened when i was making wan a crambo club. abe egg tngah sikit. might as well i finish it up kan? then wan din finish his crambo club and guess what i did? i ate the leftover. and that thing is like a triple decker. pfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffts.

ok this best friend of mine had to wake me up early while i was having a dream to have a meet up. geram je. heh heh.

she came over to obriens and made me do illegal stuff. ngehahahhaaa! it was so funny lah. then cik yah & kak khairiyah & uncle came toooooooooooooooooooooo. (: but this time they paid. hee.

red was just a coincident. though i could have changed when she came over but i was too lazy. haha.

family picnic tomorrow! yeay can meet baby danish. or should i say later. im soooooo gonna be a zombie for lack of sleeeeeeeeeeep.

anyways, im pretty happy with life right now. and i dont need a guy to alter it.
well..... at least for now. (:

: said i'll always be a friend.

tyra is talking to a 17 year old who's addicted to cocaine to lose weight. and its pretty scary cause she doesnt look fat to me. but at the end of the day, i still learn nothing. i still think im fat. fullstop. but im gonna lose it the HEALTHY way. haha. ya right. and did you noticed i said 'at the end of the day'? omg i must be missing mdm nurmah.  -____-

i ate like a pig today despite the fact that i went to exercise with the best friends in the morning. pffts. cb lah. i wanna lose weeeeeeeeeeeeeigh! boohoo. abe skarang aku sedih psal tak dpt mkn ramlee burger. gee im such a contradiction. well done mel.

i wanna thank my best friends for teman-ing me get my brand new tankini even though the rain was sooooooo heavy and everyone got wet. i looooooooooooove you girls. mampos aku emo. haha. i cant wait for sentosaaaaaa babies!

its so freaking random that we din camwhore today. pffts.

but! i have pictures from yesterday though. haha.

nad looooooooooooves obriens' sandwich. she wont admit it but i know she does. ngehahahaa!

finaz is in for a surprise next friday! omg my babe's turning 18. like what we told you earlier babe. pakai lawa-lawa and ikut kite je mane-mane kite pegi ok? im soooo excited. haha. (:

haha. nad looks like a bloody pervie. my back was aching like crazy and she was trying to help. haha. in fact, the two of them tried to help in their own crazy ways. pffts.

k nie sleeping beauty. da tdo rabak giler.

now work is taking over my life. and im dead dead tired. boohoohoo. but im not complaining. i just love what im doing. ngehaha.

omg i just remembered something.

she's probably back with her family & friends at surabaya. im gonna miss working with her lah. we'll always laughlaughlaugh at work. even though we had no rest with the never ending customers and orders. she even said 'keje dengan kau tak bleh serius ya?' (slang indon mesti ade eh) ngehahaha. goodbye endang. may you live a good life. pffts. im not good at goodbye-s lahh. im so emo when it comes to this. thank god i din cry when endang was sobbing non stop hits when i gave her the presents from courts obriens. and also when she sent that 5 am farewell msg too. god she really have to wake me up. ngehaha. k aku jahat.

k best skarang mak aku da panggil suro aku makan. call me a pig from now on ok?
bye mel. hello babi.

i saw a apit lookalike at courts and terus aku terperanjat berok for 1001 seconds. same height. same kurus-ness. same everything. no no the way he walks especially! omg scary. nasib tu pinggan aku nga cuci tak jatuh pecah like the mug and dunno what that i have to tanggung even when i din even drop both. oh wells. as long as they do nothing with my pay, im ok with it. haha. btw, courts was drop dead sunyi sepi today. pfffts. nasib razali ade. haha.

i only found out that school re-opens on the 7th after reading syaza's blog. 7TH! i always thought it was on the 14th. k bagos mel. you can say goodbye to the plans you have for that 'last-week-of-school-holidays' now. k bye.

on a brighter note, im meeting the best friend tomorrow. like YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY! after 1001 years. haha. like finally she realise she missed me.  -___-

i wanna talk to lynnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. our conversation was cut by her adik beradiks or something just now. i was juggling the hp with the dirty plates too btw. haha.

ohh and a certain special someone by the name shafinaz' bday is coming! *winkswinks.

i miss this. (and my hair too) boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
 

kepale aku masih sakit.

and me & lyn da cam twins tak menjadi.

k byee.